Sedarilah jiwaku....Cinta sejati..

Cinta hakiki adalah kesegaran dan keharuman bunga yang dikirim syurga oleh Allah untuk membuat dunia tersenyum.

Parasnya laksana embun menyambut pagi , dan mengilhami bunga untuk menebarkan keharuman dinii dimusim semi, mengilhami manusia untuk meresapi tentang keindahan sari Islami.

Dengan segala kecantikan dan pesona iman yang begitu sempurna, semua orang akan menilai ia adalah cinta paling beruntung, ya, cinta kepada Ilahi, maka hidupnya dipenuhi oleh kesenangan dan kegembiraan hakiki.

Namun siapakah yang menyangka bila nafsu dan hati kecil telah memesongkan jiwa itu?

Siapakah yang bakal mengira bahwa jiwanya telah terangkat lalu terbang dari tubuhnya- untuk mencari keagungan cinta sejati...Tiada seorangpun tahu tentang duka hati yang membaluti jiwanya...tiada seorangpun tahu tentang ratap tangis dan rintihan kalbunya dikeremangan malam, mengenangkan cinta palsu yang hampir memusnahkan jiwanya...

Dikala itu, disebalik cahaya bulan dan bintang, sayup kedengaran ku mengimbas kembali nasihat yang pernah ummiku sering mengingatkan ku, sungguh, baru ku sedari maknanya setelah sekian lama, bukankah kita ini manusia lemah?

Sering mempertikaikan apa yang ada di depan mata, namun, setelah dikirimkan bala, menduga sekeping hati yang lemah, barulah disedari akan makna sebenar disebalik topeng yang menutupi hikmah yang tersembunyi. Benar kata ummi, selembut angin yang mengirimkan berita gembira tibanya musim bunga, ummi mengalunkan Firman Allah s.w.t. yang bermaksud, Dan segala sesuatu yang Kami ciptakan berpasang-pasangan, supaya kamu mengingati (kekuasaan Kami dan mentauhidkan Kami).

Kumohon padamu cinta...hentikan usahamu, lepaskan segala nafsu dan gundahmu....

Aku mendengar rintihan jiwamu, aku mendengar resahmu , kucuba untuk menjawab setiap pertanyaan jiwamu...pergilah kepada cinta sejati, bersandarlah disebalik bayang cinta hakiki, yakinlah bahwa Allah akan ada disetiap hembusan nafasmu...Hulurkanlah sayap jiwamu yang terpatah, kan digapai dan disembuhkan dengan kepakan zikrullah.

Tersenyumlah bersama mentari, sampaikan salam kerinduanmu pada Allah-melalui desiran angin dan alunan zikrullah, diangkasa serukanlah segala cinta indahmu agar diketemukan ketenangan hakiki, percayalah...

Getting ready for take off~~

Seriously, lots of thing have to be done when preparing to go overseas. What clothes to wear, is it cheap enough, stylish or not, where to buy, how bout the seasons, not to mention essentials, money rate, money transfer, register account bank, how to withdraw when I'm arrived there. Huh, all that hard work of course involves me, my dad, mom and my big sis though. This is where family come in for help.

First, of course, we must learn the place that we wanna go. Either the climate, weather, markets, banks, food availability, bookstores, etc. must be check first either by internet, books, or the people that have went there before. In my case, I have asked my teachers of course, graduated from Egypt.

Ask about the people, the markets, where to buy food, the transports, the language, proper manners cause different region different culture so by knowing the differences might change the perspectives of the local people there of me.

Then, it comes to the seasonal clothes. I live in Malaysia. Tropical region. No four seasons definitely. So, throughout the year I always wear the same kind of get up. Just occasionally when there's wedding ceremony or party then I suppose wear the tradisional clothes will just suffice.

Field Trip part 3

We were choosing the blouses, then my dad want to take pic, so we posed.

My lil sis, the one with tudung labuh, hafizah, with God willing, insyaAllah, trying to find new shoes. She is petite, so sometimes, it's better to find her size at the kid's department. Still, she would sulk though, cuz she's the smallest in my family. She is big enough for her age, but not size, like during school assembly, she is always at the front, I mean, really at the front, she's always the first in her line. She hated it though.  

Field Trip!!~~ part 2

  Okay, the day actually start like this, I went to Jusco, Seremban to buy clothes for me when I'm going to Egypt. Blouse, slacks, jacket, blazer, etc. For formal wear of course. Then, I went to see the theater play, and world cup final game after that.

 This is my sis n my mom choosing the shirts.

 This is me trying the blazer.

Field Trip.... part 1

Hohoho...yup, it seems that the world cup has finally end this morning....with Spain as the victorious. It was a rough morning for me considering that i fell asleep several time just to watch the game. I went with my big sis n her friends. Before that I went to see a theater play, "Aladdin dan Pelita Ajaib" also, Aladdin and the magic lamp. It is a comedy play, so it is very amusing to me, although, my sis, well, she used to be a director for this kind of play theater thing, so she kinda know something bout it that she and Tom, her friend, kept criticsizing about the play.

Hahaha, considering that I know nothing I just laugh while sitting at the back of the car. I really love the play, the setting, the props, the costumes, of course, like a fairytale. You know, sometimes I just  jealous at the actors, considering they could pretend to be someone else, even for just a play. Cuz, there just no way that I could get on stage, right?

Of course it looked like the actors were enjoying it. I really like the props, especially when the genie summon the magic carpet, it was hilarious. I couldn't explain it how though, you gotta see it then you understand.

This is the part that Aladdin found the magic lamp.

This is the part that the princess were brought to her father and was accused for something she did, but the facts were twisted.

 This is the part that the villain were using his magic to find out the cure for the princess, evil style.










I like this part. The props were cool. The princess was asleep, bewitched, and Aladdin was caught.

Pictures of my buddies

This is Awatif, Soraya and Syafiqah.


From the left, Anisah, Amalina, Muna and Syafiqah.

Life at Kolej IbrahimYaakob

Tadah!! This is where my group study at night. See the boxes behind Firwan? There are a lot more of them behind Syafiqah and Soraya actually. We don't mind it. We liked it there, although the room could be called storage room.

My group is so much fun! I used to live in hostel for secondary school, so I know how to judge people from my point of view, why? You might say that it's too early for me to judge them,well, you could say that I'm naive, but I did have problems with my friends from previous school so I know how it felt.

Not INTERSABER, but SAMTTAR. From F1 till F3 I studied at SAMTTAR.
Of course, this place is my sanctuary in my early days as teenager, learning how to interact with seniors, friends, juniors, but they just don't understand me, trying to change me, when I'm not like that. I'm not like that, change myself just to get in the group. That's no fun.

Well, I actually don't remember the details though. I don't want to remember it maybe, but what I remember is I cried a lot, thinking what's wrong with my attitude all this time. I can't accept it cause all my friends, already kind of tired of me, and told me about my faults.

I was brokenheart. Really, that time I felt like I was betrayed by them. I couldn't really call them my friends anymore at some point. Then, I was solo ranger at the time. After that, I joined the other group, well how could I face them and saying that I'm alright?

I cried, even tried to consult with my mom, but I couldn't. The minute I tried to tell her about it, my eyes gushing with tears. Even my brother is involved is this matter which is quite embarassing.

In the end, I move away to another school. Making new friends, while bearing in my mind not to make the same mistakes ever again, not to repeat the agony of betrayal again cause I'm not that strong at heart when it comes to relationships. I tried to become a cheerful person, when that's all I could do. How it is I wonder people could find their soulmate?

All the anxiety, insecurities, not knowing what to do, what must to do, in a relationship, what must I do so that I won't have to feel that wound again?